2014

This is happening far quicker than I have ever expected. Unconsciously I have been unknowingly progressing into my third week of the year of 2014. 

I can't believe it. I can't believe this is 2014. I can't believe I'm turning 21 this April. I can't believe a lot of things.
I have a lot of questions I don't have answers to. 
What should I do?

A few days before new year began, I made a lot of promises to myself and made a lot of big plans just like every other year. I thought I could make a difference this time. Given that what I have been through, all those choices I made, those mistakes I committed and those time I wasted, I thought I would be wiser this time, would be more responsible this time. 

But I am not really sure about that right now.

I am in the university studying a degree I have no concrete idea what I can use it for. The only thing is - I like it a lot. I like what I am doing and enjoy studying it.

I am financially very dependent - in fact I've never been able to support myself financially throughout my entire 20 years of life - what a shame.

I have no idea about my future. This doesn't sound right and I don't like the feeling of it. 

I stopped blogging just a few weeks right after I restarted blogging, I stopped doing weekly budgets on my spending just a few weeks after I started doing it, I am not a very patient man and I understand that very well. This, however, is going to destroy me. I know that quite well too.

I might have been one of those smart kids in high school, being seen as a leader, socially active blah blah blah. But now, I am just a quirky weirdo who minds his own business.

From here onward there will be no walking in the park. I have been shouting to myself trying pull myself back together. 

What will happen? No idea. Let's see!

Happy new year!